Medicine Message 2: Freedom To Be Wild

What is in you is wild and repressed. You hide by lowering your volume, and by trying to silence what is externally loud, as your heart screams its disastrous vibrations above it all. There is nothing to conquer, when someone allows you to help, it is not an invitation to take everything over. In positions of leadership, your suppressed wild side shows. Temporarily in the shadow, it waits for its moment to deconstruct and destroy the beautiful gift being presented to you. When trapped in ego, you allow the rising of the hidden shadow to win, you allow yourself to blame the poison in you on someone else. You bring the chaos, by nature of the chaos within you, that you ignore. Look in the mirror, and be honest with how you prepared for the ceremony. Take into account the energetic residue of the days before and the actions you took. Lots of TV, sex, drugs, unhealthy foods, and partying is not how to prepare for a ceremony, especially if you are in a position of leadership. There is not enough sage in the world that will take away the fact that you have to work on cleansing your own energy as a daily part of your life, while being mindful of who you allow to walk through it. You’re not a garbage can.

Don’t pretend to know or understand what anyone is doing, saying, or feeling, until you have made resting in silence a priority in your life. You can’t truly hear anyone through the noisy filter of a clouded mind filled with expectations. You can’t feel the sincerity, nor trust the process of what is being presented, from a fearful heart. You can’t control the gift, nor the gift giver. When you attempt that, you rob yourself of the surprise that brings joy, because you think only your way is the way. It is impossible for you to control everything. You don’t walk into the emergency room and start doing your own stitches. Allow yourself to be helped. Humility is key, you were alone before the thing to be “taken over” presented itself, it is that desire of taking things over and controlling what is not yours, that keeps you in addictive lonely spirals. You want to numb the feeling of failure from trying to control that which you can not. The work is bigger than us all, sit down and learn. If you think you can do it better, please, start. More people are needed. Learn the medicine songs, write your own, learn the meditations, read the books, write the poetry prayers, create the following, create the questionnaire, read them, learn the instruments, be an activist outside of ceremony, respond to each need with sincerity, remember repeatedly that it is not about you, show up strong despite how exhausting the preparation can be, survive being ignored and under appreciated, be willing to die for it, be willing to be locked up for it, take the risk. If none of that sounds like it is to your liking, please be quiet, sit down, and take that moment to pull the blanket over your head and cry, be open to being helped, let the pain out. My body is not my age, neither is yours.

See beyond the limitation.
I See – is a prayer.
Freedom to be wild.

Love and Kindness are enough.

Medicine Message 1

Be born today. Allow yourself to be born. Birthing is difficult for the one being born, and the one holding the experience in compassionate care long enough for you to pass through. Fear not what is on the other side of being born so much that you stay in the tunnel, the in between of becoming. The butterfly is useless in the cocoon, or perhaps not useless – food for another being. That which does not become, goes swiftly to decay. The cycle must continue. It’s not that you have to know better, you just have to remember better. It’s not that time waits for no one, it’s that you are time, and you’ve forgotten the depth of the part you play in creating the beauty you have come to admire as something outside of yourself. Words can forever only touch, they can only hint, they can only point in the direction towards the images of the infinite. You are one with it all, one with the infinite, so the voice you hear in your head is also that, you should follow your own advice, the wise part of yourself that stands still in the middle of crumbling chaos. Stop silencing that, stop allowing that voice to get lost in the noise. There is no such thing as noise, every thing has purpose, what annoys you in regards to what you call noise, is that it takes you deeper away from hearing your own inner silent note (words fail me here, for if a note is silent can it be called such?). Make time for hearing it against all odds. But here we are again, you can not make time, you are it. Remember that you can hear the wisdom of your very own soul, remember that it has value, remember that no one can reveal that value to you but you. That is why you are here, to remember that value, and to sing it out into the world. I am not a writer. I am writing. Not as an action, as a state of being. I am writing, I am it. Who cares? What are you…

Morning Meditation Message 18

Situations will arise to put fear and frustration in your heart. If you have cleared your intuitive channels you will be prepared long before they arrive. However, if you aren’t prepared, the situation will still sharpen you and make you much stronger. Be open to that. As you open to the truth of all that is, you will feel relief in remembering that all life is cradled, including your own. Surrender to the moment and experience knowing that all is well, and that you will safely be carried to your next destination. There are bigger forces operating behind the veil supporting you, nourishing you, keeping your life in tact. You can not see gravity, but it is there, acting on even the molecular structure of your being. You can not see certain wavelengths of light, but they are there. Allow yourself to feel safe and cradled during the transition, so that your vibration continues attracting the unfolding of your highest most harmonious purpose on Earth.

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Morning Meditation Message 17

Contemplate your cosmic origin. The you before the body of human. All around is the evidence of return. Like an inhale and an exhale, our bodies are filled with life and are emptied. You are the life force, not the body. Like the trunk of a fallen tree that becomes the soil, so too will we disperse and give way to other expressions of life after our time here. Light is the soil of the soul, life is both an exploration of expansion and a return trip. Use your time here – in that beautiful specific incarnation that you are – well. It took billions of years to make you, and to leave within the fabric of your creation the freedom for you to be absolutely ridiculous. What do I mean? Well, ridiculous in the sense that sometimes you believe that your imperfections are greater than the infinite wisdom coded into – not only your soul as geometric manifestations of light – but also in the genetic codes of your body; the history of your people. Contemplate your cosmic origin, you are an exquisite being that chose to forget why you came here, so that you may feel the beauty of remembering. You wanted a break from the infinite wisdom of the soul, and a taste of new undiscovered experience. Have you had your fill of forgetting yet? I know I have! Stop judging what you see in the mirror, you are a miracle still in expansion, a miracle that not one of us can truly comprehend or put into words. Enter the doors of your hearts calling, and let gratitude carry you beyond the illusion of your limitations.

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Morning Meditation Message 16

We’ve forgotten how to be on top of one another, which was once an integral part of our survival as a species. We migrated with little room for sleep, everything we owned on our backs, and now we can’t even sit on the crowded train together. We have lost our way, traveled miles away from the truth. What is the truth? The fact that we need each other. The fact that you choose lonely and really want love is masochistic. Stop killing yourself. Love calls all the missing pieces, reminding each that it is important. The language is love, light, and sound. It is what you feel, what you see, and what you hear. A little noise is not going to hurt you, and a little touch is not going to hurt you. When was the last time you abruptly bumped into yourself and wanted to be with you – that sweet frightening beauty that you are? It is time to remember that you are one with it all. Stop being annoyed by the small things in the mess you have created of your own life. It is okay, we have all made a mess of our lives, and the planet. Together we remember, together we take action. Step one is to remember by waking up, step two is to clean, step three is to ask for help. Change the order if you must. The formula is non-linear. This is all happening too fast to cry. Too fast to cry. Too fast to cry.

Diaspora

Spraying like spore prints across the land
our power lotus flower like made to sprout in mud
the muck of our forgotten woe separated from us
by the use of clever language that cleaves at self-worth
our jeans hang as low as our spirits as our genes cry
ancestors turning in their graves twisting double helix like
embarrassed to be a part of the present beheading
they are still lynching us for sport.

Kevon Simpson © 2015

Choosing Misery

Emotions can inspire change, create brilliant pieces of art, or even bring more abundance into your life when used productively. As one decides to be mindful in the face of powerful feelings, what is created within the individual, is a delicate space for choice to unfold. A space where we can choose to not say the hurtful thing, or take the vengeful act, or sabotage our very own dreams. Quite often we feel that the emotions are choosing us, and that we have no say in the matter. However, though it can be difficult at times, there is always a choice. When we practice meditation, we give our lives the gift of realizing the whispering moment that pulls us out of the passionate destructive reaction to what is happening around us.

On my most recent healing shamanic journey, something unexpected was revealed to me in a way that I will never forget. As I sat in my meditation room experiencing moments of at times tear filled pain, and others ecstatic joy, I saw a point in my mind I did not notice so clearly before. As clear as you can see the light switch on the wall, so vibrantly did I see my ability to choose joy, or misery. In the wellness community we acknowledge the infinite nature of well-being all around us, and we do not doubt that love is indeed infinite. In my journey I saw that even misery is infinite, and this was a most frightening realization. I could feel the plight of humanity deep in my bones. The reason behind how so many of my brothers and sisters are unable to see that they are choosing to live in pain became clear to me. They literally do not see that they are choosing it. How? By being caught in infinite loops of self-doubt, revenge, lack of forgiveness for self and others, crippling fear of the unknown; the list went on infinitely. My eyes widened with shock, and compassion poured out of my soul, this realization made me want to help people even more.

As the water wears down the rock, more rock is pushed up from the earth, as this is the nature of life, creation holding the hand of destruction. There is balance in both the misery and the beauty, and as sentient, conscious beings in the experience of life, who are able to analytically decipher our experience as good or bad, at times we allow our minds to over think to the point of never moving out of our own misery. What we think we figured out in our hours of analyzing, seems to add gasoline to fire, instead of putting out the flames. Then, as we succumb to the futility of our efforts, what we look for next are ways in which we can find more things to distract us from the pain within that we are unwilling to face and let go.

Letting go is the key we avoid, because we like to convince our minds that the misery of pain, is a more delicious door to open than the freedom of our relief. But that is a habit of choosing the known, that willingly leaves forgiveness as the unknown. If someone has hurt you, you believe that letting go and forgiving them, means that you will allow another to do it to you again, and you believe that your discomfort makes them suffer, but neither is the truth. A lack of forgiveness is only a comfort zone, and the source of our misery is quite often a comfort zone we have long outgrown. If you go forward with mindfulness and self respect, the same fate can not befall you once the lesson has already been learned. So then, holding on to the misery has no use, other than lowering your immune cells by increasing the hormones released by emotional distress, and causing your life great pain, due to your inability to open up and be loved by all around you.

Why let it go when it can be fuel for the artistic master piece? Why let it go when it can be the fuel for the victim mentality that leaves everyone else to take care of you? Why let go when the pain feels so good? Are you really ready to move on to your best life? Is there another way to be creatively inspired? Take time to answer those questions on your own, perhaps it is time to do things in a healthier way that sustains your overall well-being.

Though I don’t have much, I can still smile and help others smile. Many strangers have cried healing tears on my shoulders. I share with them the abundance of my compassionate heart, a heart that chooses joy instead of misery more often than not. We may not always get it right, but we can always try again in this moment, for indeed it is a new moment. In my journey I saw that misery can create a comfortable illusion, that robs one of true happiness everyday. We can be financially secure and spiritually bankrupt, for it is not having things that makes one smile from the soul, it is the love of friends, family, and living a life of fulfilled purpose that creates true joy. A joy so true that we would need no other substance to numb us from the reality of our failure.

Remember that success has many sides to it, free yourself from the misery by making time for silent introspection, and allow the letting go of what is no longer serving your higher self. Go on a Shamanic Journey with a trusted spiritual professional, and meditate on the reality of your freedom; know that you have the strength to heal and overcome whatever it is that has happened to you. Let go of all that is not helping you uphold an openhearted view of the path ahead. You deserve it, so choose it! Let that misery be infinite somewhere else!

by Kevon Simpson © 2014